Family -- The Ties That Bind . . . and Gag!
Case in point:
I called my mom this morning as Jeff and I had not had a great couple of days. This second round of treatment has been easier for him physically, but it was rougher mentally as this time he knew it was coming. Like my dad said when we had lunch today, it's like standing in front of a freight train you can see coming, and that you can't get out of the way of I added. So yeah -- we had been snippier with each other and this morning I was really trying to not take it out on Jeff this morning. My goal was to talk to him later when I had (hopefully) dealt with things better.
But after a quick conversation with him, I was feeling rather emotional and I thought rather than give my husband more to deal with, I'd call my mom. In hindsight, it was a lousy idea. Out of respect for my mom's privacy, suffice it to say we fought, I did my best in my not-great emotional state to apologize before telling her I loved her and hanging up the phone.
On the plus side, I did a) properly sort things out with Jeff and b) had a really good talk with both my sisters. And I finally called upon my church family for some prayer support (why did I hesitate with this?!) along with calling upon some friends who have been fantastic through all my ups and downs.
You know it's a pretty neat thing with family -- siblings and cousins in particular. They know where you're coming from without you having to go into a whole lot of detail to get on the same page. Sometimes, they're even on the right page before you are, which was something I really needed today.
Interestingly enough, upon telling Jeff I got mad at my mom, he said "Good for you." (Mom, don't be mad or offended if you're reading this, please. He just feels I take too much from people in general and don't speak up enough for myself, so it's a case of him being glad I spoke up instead of holding everything in.)
So yeah -- family. Gotta (and do!) love them.
:-P
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